As mentioned in the Intro to Piece of Clareity, I am comfortable with acknowledging that I will be turning 29 in a few short days. I’m okay with getting older. In fact, I welcome the idea of aging. I like to view it more as maturing gracefully rather than just “getting old.” I’m a firm believer in that cliche “age is only a number.” Since I don’t feel 29, I still feel 26- bright eyed and bushy tailed, ready for the rest of my life. (sure, my body is telling me otherwise-my eyes hate me, I’m mentally not ready)
Only as of recent, the thought of turning 29 is scaring me. Almost as if I’d rather skip year 29 and go straight to 30. Maybe it’s because of my fear of odd numbers, or the overwhelming of acknowledging that I’ll now be entering a new age bracket (18-24, 25-29, 30+), and will somehow still be lumped into the negative stereotypes around being a millennial, (fun fact: millennials are from 1980-2000, do the math, I’m an “older” millennial).
In grad school we were taught that majority of us were at the early stages of millennials. I was okay with that. But being in the workforce, I’m deeply disappointed. I know we cannot change our age. I also am finding I have become more frustrated with the concept of being clustered into the millennial generation. I’ve been trying to prove myself beyond the stereotype, but have been finding that because of my age, I’ve been lumped into a mold which I don’t fit in. This has caused me to become frustrated, disappointed and let down too many times to count within the last few years.
I’ve also come to a realization that I can no longer “work for the man.” I am a free spirit who cannot be micromanaged. I do not respond well to “hovering” and “telling you how to.” My issue boils down to the thinking of “If you are telling me step by step how you want it done, why are we both wasting our time on this?” I’d prefer to work in an environment where my creativity and “think outside the box” mindset is welcomed, not discouraged. Be it a round about process, (that’s how my mind works sometimes) I’m still producing the results everyone expects of me. When given a task, trust and believe that I will accomplish and complete the task beyond satisfaction. Even if your way of getting to the final result is different than mine, I promise me, I was hired to do a job, and darn right, I am going to do it to the best of my abilities.
How can we learn to grow without being stifled and micromanaged to the point where it becomes unhealthy hindering our growth and performance?
I’ve learned a lot about myself as an individual, as a contributing member to society, as a entrepreneur, as a wife, as a mom, even as an employee. I know who I am, and how I am as an individual. I maybe a bit too independent and strong-willed, and yes, that can be a huge turn off in the world today (especially if you are lumped into the stereotype of being a millennial….) but I am confident in my skills and abilities. I know I can get the job done. I believe that everyone has some shred of goodness to them, and I feel as though it’s my personal responsibility to help others let their light shine. Am I crazy?
Maybe it’s the fact that Saturn is returning, or Mercury is in retrograde (I still have no idea what that means) but all I do know is at the end of the day, I ask myself a few reflective questions to challenge my thinking and to challenge who I am becoming and where I am heading in life. I always know at the end of the day, I am to be pursuing something bigger, something holistic, something beyond my current line of work. I’m here to help others, to lift each other up, to participate on “Team Human.” I am a team player, I’d rather be on “Team Human” than on “Team Everyone-Out-For-Themselves.”
Why we are here on earth?
We are to uplift, inspire and engage.
Challenge and interact with others.
Be “Team Human.”
Why are we being stifled? Why are we downplaying each others abilities in pursuit of chasing down the dollar? Whatever happened to the purpose of dreaming? Why are we stopping each other from having dreams? As of recent, I’ve had these “lofty and idealistic” dreams, and something inside me has been longing to just GO FOR THEM- but the world/environment around me is preventing me from even thinking them. Why are we all so negative towards each other?
Why are we NOT encouraging each other to go for your dreams?
I’ll tell you right now, my friend, I am encouraging you to just go for that dream you have. We all have the unlimited potential to make our dreams reality. Stop listening to those who are holding you back. We cannot be scared to try new things. We should try. We will fail, and that’s okay. In fact, I embrace failure. I want us all to really make a difference in the world. Why not start with trying to achieve our own individual dreams?